What the HELL would i do without u? :D

With exam-time comes tension, resposibility, care, headaches wat the hell ever more.

And when its coupled with weird happenings that send your world crashing down upon you, you wish that ud just seriously be at the hospital and not go to the exam hall.

This being my first time for boards i was exceptionally nervous, but i managed to get a hold of myself good enough to just whizz through it.

And now here come the holidays, always welcome, yet extremely irritating. Nothing to do day or night except some chatting, a book, or some tv. Then just some craving for an activity...an outlet for the energy...anything.

As such, i have no idea what im talking about this time around, probably two topic merged or something like that, so forgive me :).

So what I do at nights is surf hopelessly, find someone to pass the time with or watever but obviously evyone is not a freaking owl like me...though i can say that for the past two years since i started coming online, ive never felt lonely in summer as there has always been someone to spend the nights with.

So tuday, i just starting watching another anime, and...argghhhh i just lost the whole loaded video!! damn :|*keeps it to reload*

Anyway, the theme this anime stresses on again n again n again...something that is overlooked by us a lot...something i have alredy mentioned...it says u must express how u feel about someone, cuz they wont know...

Merely feeling is not enough until and unless they know...the ones whum u feel about.

Well i guess there's no point babbling about it again but u see...i just felt it was necessary that everyone be reminded so...

Including me.

I have now been painfully made aware that half my problem is because i just dont tell how i feel about a matter, or a person...or anything....

A little awkward i am, if you may...for telling how i really feel....ie...telling my frndz, my family i love them.

There's this big padlock on my heart that refuses to open once its been shut...and u wud most definetly find me blushing if i have to say that even to my mom.

Well then everyone i know reading this blog, people...i love y'all :).

The pInK dAy....

This entry is specially dedicated to a friend... and all the other people who think they have no one to celebrate valentines day with :)

Hmmm...Valentines day.................

A special day to celebrate with loved ones,  giving chocolates and other random gifts to make people feel happy :D... Love is in the air... :D You can see guys and gals holding hands and blah blah cuz truely i havent seen any kissing or watever :P....

But some people dont have Gf'z and Bf'z to celebrate this day with....and seeing all the love, they get depressed?

Well let me remind them that this day isnt all about couples. Its about spending a day with a person you love...and truely, there are many people in this world who are there for just one person :)

Everyone has a Mother, a Father, A sister, a brother, or if not then a friend. Everyone does have someone with whom they share stuff... and who loves you the most in the world.

Gf'z and Bf'z come and go....but these other people....they stay forever.

You should make these people your valentines because by God, no one can ever love you more than your parents...umm and lil babies (this one is fr my frnd ;) )

So make them feel special instead of moping around people! Because as i said earlier, You only realize someones worth when you lose them. 

Wish your mom a happy v.day, send her flowers if you are far away, tell her you love her :)..or even a very special friend :D...they will love it :D

Happy valentines day everyone!! ♥♥♥

 

Death...the inevitable

So basically i just went ahead and chose this topic for my new entry. Depressing?? Definetly...but also definetly something to think about :)
We all have different beliefs and some point about dying...about what will happen after we go back to the dust and stuff...but then it all sums up to one thing: we shall not come back. What ever thing u believe in all the people do agree that we shall not come back...or probably for some...atleast not as ourself. Once a person goes he is mourned for...prayed for to be given salvation and blessing but obviously we have no idea what is going on with them. They say that the dead person is judged on whether he was good or not...but that is minute detail isnt it. What is the result? Did he make it into heaven? No one knows.
The main idea here is that we may not see that person again. "He is gone...Goodbye...So long...You were awesome in my life...i wish you were still here..." is stuff we think but with a hope that maybe...just maybe we can see them again...or maybe forget them. This ray of hope that you may see them again consoles us...but i am not satisfied.
I do not feel that hope is enough. Where is the reassurement? To see a person again who was most important in ones life is something one wishes for...is it not so?
I do not know in which direction i take this entry by repeating something over and over...
but i probably just want to say that people in your life are very very valuable. You may not get to see them again....
So err....Value the ones you know :)

Say hi to the new year....!

Happy New Year!!
Having said that, it is cool that my first blog entry will be about my year of 2008 and what i want to acheive in this new year of 2009 :)
Since i have a really bad memory this entry will probably be real brief but who cares :D!
Firstly i had this realisation today that this is the year i spent most of my time online. I made really really awesome friends during this time and i hope that they will keep in touch this year as well. Although what i feel is that i should start limiting my time now :(....because my CIEs are near and they are like the most important exams of my school life!! Even so, i wanna tell my friends that they are all wonderful and i love them loads forever and ever.
Remembering along, 2008 has been the worst year of my shortish life :D. I have experienced inexplicable depression (specially before exams ;) ). I have seen deaths of closest relations who can never be replaced. I have seen minor faliure, and then hard work to overcome it. Self-realisation, self-consiousness awareness to my surroundings. Dissapointment, delay, impatience and everything that is irritating. And i have experienced lonliness. Hours and moments of lonliness which was, certainly, the first thing that brought me online. Times when i feel i have no one to talk to, which is definetly true. But then i have learned to hide it, to cope with it. Indeed I am all smiles and no one knows what i feel inside. This though i feel is a victory :). No one needs to brag about what they are feeling inside, no one wants pity or sympathy. I do not want to go to a psychiatrist though so i occasionally let it all out hence the depression waves ;) lol... :P
By the way dont tell me, i know i am only experiencing my all-great teenage years :P...but hey they are still fun! :)
On the bright side i got a really fastish internet and im experiencing youtube on its best :D...and i just loooooooooove it :p. Then this is the year i read the least books :( all because i spend my time gawking at webpages and chats :P.
I got to know that music can cure all sorts of sadness :P...and i got to know how fatal it is to get sick on exam mornings....that to a chemistry exam :O....
It was the year of the best movies ever XD including Pirates of the Carribean 3 and Fashion and it was the year of awesomeeeeeeeeeeee songs by one republic, and other great bollywood songs. i finally learnt how to tie my laces :P and i learnt how to cook stuff that was edible for people :P.
I read the most awesome series titled TWILIGHT and fell in love with the vampire Edward Cullen :D
Ohh and i got bespectacled :( Fish :((.
And i learnt that the Earth was spherical and not flat!! :O....Dju know that?! (ok PJ i know :P)
But seriously i feel that pluto should remain a planet....umm...nevermind :P...

Well whatever! As lame as 2008 was, i hope that this new year brings happiness to all including me :P...and that everything that went wrong in the old year would get amended now :)

Holaz to blogging!

“Blogging??
How boring”, I thought…. “Why should I do it?
Just a bunch of lame entries from people who have nothing else to do in the world… Stuff about their lives….Well don’t they think they should keep their lives private??”
Truth is, I though blogs were only peoples diaries which they kept online if they didn’t have space at home… (No offence :P)
I have a friend who blogs and I read it regularly but I didn’t get motivated to make my own blog.Well though I read this article in a magazine about blogging and so I got that it doesn’t have to be only diaries, but you can put in your favorite books and blah blah so I thought why not? I guess i have time to show off how intellectual i am with books huh 8) :P :P (heh)
So in this lame first post I was probably gonna tell you who I am, what I do, what I like but dammit…its all in my profile…go read it there :P…
One thing I haven’t mentioned in it though is that why I call myself Miss World: D. Well I used the name first in orkut and then it just became sorta my identity… And im not trying to impersonate any real Miss Worlds out there: P… Nor am I saying that I’m pretty and the real ones don’t deserve it and any other story you might come up with :P…
And you might find a lot of “fish” in this blog… So that’s my way of saying something is unpleasant. (like dammit :P…)
So uhm…. Hey! Read, Comment, Temme if I’m lame or cool.
And don’t forget to vote in the polls as well :)

SK.